It’s our ninth wedding anniversary today. Yep, you forgot. But that’s ok! You’ve got a lot on your plate right now. And we both know, it’s my role to make you remember these wedding dates, and we have two! So here’s a letter to make you remember — not the date — but how special and loved you are.

I miss you today. Like a lot. Big time.

If we’re together right now, we would have gone to a nice, fancy restaurant that we have not been yet. We would have ordered a good bottle of wine. We would have laughed a lot. We would have talked about our kids. And we would have looked back at our past 6 months together. We would have celebrated what we’ve accomplished, readjusted goals not met, and set new targets to reach. Ha! We sound so structured but I love this about us. About you. Every single time you put in a goal – whether it’s for yourself, for us as a couple, or for our family – your why’s always lead to us. With us – you are selfless. But you would say it’s actually selfish because your kids — and I include myself here — are extensions of yourself.

But we aren’t together right now. You are on your own minding our two beautiful children’s everyday needs while taking care of our new home (OUR OWN HOME!!! Could you believe that?!) plus also working at the same time! You have now proven you are indeed, Superman! So thank you! Thank you for doing what you do. Thank you for listening to me cry and whine about being alone in Hong Kong. Thank you for taking the call at night and in the morning to keep me posted about our kids. Thank you for not breaking all the new appliances in our house. Thank you for trying to tidy up our place. Thank you for sorting the kids school. Thank you for keeping me sane and grounded and focused on what we need to achieve together. Thank you for being my rock, my voice of reason, and my partner. Thank you for your sacrifices. I see them. I know them.

I am very fortunate to have you as my best friend for life. I can’t wait to celebrate with you soon.

But now, let me end this love letter with the lyrics of our song. 9 years and 2 babies — every word still rings true!

Chasing Cars

by Snow Patrol

We’ll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don’t need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don’t quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They’re not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

Let’s waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they’re all I can see

I don’t know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Love,

Rawnna